Well, I am in another day, another day. lol. Another article, another mystery, another beginning, another ending, another word, another sentence, another life, and another death. (Whew, I did not see that coming loljk)
This article is inspired by one of my favorite songs ever. Yep, you guessed it right! It’s “I See The Light” by Mandy Moore and Zachary Levi from Tangled. (Duh, it’s my title tho.)
This song is highly related to my situation right now and I would just like to share it with y’all. *Sigh* So here it goes.
All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I’ve been
Yep, literally just watching from the windows (just kidding) of course not. But it’s as if my life is based on observing. Just constantly watching people as their life unfolds. It has been years since then… years of waiting, years of suffering (technically not, I was just overreacting) Haha.
But then realization suddenly hits me. It’s the biggest and hardest slap I’ve had after so many years… And here I am now again, waking up together with my senses.
Why am I so naive? Wait, let me rephrase that statement. Why am I so naive back then? I have come to a realization that there is a great brick wall that is surrounding me, that changed my perspective and made me believe in an illusion. A terribly dark, make-believe illusion.
But still, we need to look on the brighter side of things. Thank God for finally waking me up again from my unhealthy slumber.
Now I’m here blinking in the starlight
Now I’m here suddenly I see
Standing here it’s all so clear
I’m where I’m meant to be
I feel as if I am sailing above the clouds as the moon and the stars smile down at me. I feel as if it is my first time that I have acquired a sense of sight. I feel as if it is also my very first time to hear such beautiful melody and symphony. Everything is new to me. It’s like God has finally given me glasses or a magnifying glass lol. because I can quite clearly see the beautiful things in life that are at my reach. I finally came to a realization that I am more than blessed. Realizations, flashbacks and nostalgia flooded my weary mind, telling me that this is where I am meant to be.
And at last I see the light
And it’s like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it’s like the sky is new
*Sighs with quite a relief* Finally, finally. That feeling of being lightheaded but in a good and special way. It’s as if there is finally light in my very dark and mysterious world. I feel ignited as my passions and determination are now finally fueled by that one thing. You know that feeling of having a very huge thorn taken out from your chest? Or that feeling of finally able to achieve some things? Like I said, every bit of my being now is new. I don’t know why but I feel so renewed and refreshed. It’s as if the sun decided to show up today and did not even allow the clouds to shed some tears for me. I’ve been looking to the wrong places again. What I have been looking is just an artificial light, why not go to the real light that could set your hearts on fire.
And it’s warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you
That light that simply warms even the coldest hearts. The coldest and callous hearts that you could ever find in all humanity. My life has been to so many ups and downs (More on the down part I think if I will be more specific), it’s like I am in a roller coaster that has so many twists and turns. And do you know what’s weird? It’s because my world keeps shifting. Any second, it will turn into a hundred eighty degrees. What a very exciting and tiring life. My setting keeps on changing, but then again. This time, upon seeing you, upon seeing Him, suddenly… everything really changed and brought me back at the very beginning. (Yes, a 180-degree turn again -.-) But this change… this change is good. Well, you all know… Change is the only constant thing in this world, why not take the opportunity of this beautiful change?
All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
I keep on running and I keep on chasing that I did not realize that there’s no need to chase for that thing (HAHA I don’t want to be specific here loljk). It’s is completely useless. It is not worth of my time. I know that my life feels like a blurred picture that I failed to focus on some parts of my life. As a result, the whole picture turns out to be a blur too. I failed to see the things that I should not have been doing. Here’s the question again, why am I so naive back then? Why am I easily fazed? Why do I trust so easily where in fact I should put my trust to the one who can’t break it, the one who made it. Another thankful moment, thank God for sweeping me off my feet and rescued me before I drown into despair… and worse, depression (lol OA, it seems like a good word for this situation lol)
Now He’s here shining in the starlight
Now He’s here suddenly I know
If He’s here it’s crystal clear
I’m where I’m meant to go
Thank God for always being there for me. You never even left in the first place. But this statement or verse is not only limited to God. I am thankful with my family, friends etc because I will not be here or I will never know where I am meant to go without them. Thank God for using them to mold me into becoming a better and strong person.
Now that I see you…
Yes, I am wearing my glasses and now able to see things much better. For through this glasses, I was now able to see the real you.
Just a retrospective
Not an ending
Let the light shine in you
Let the light shine in me
Remember to remain true
For that is the key
**My creativity and cognitive ability decreased right before this article ended. So, sorry in advance for a very crappy ending. I suddenly lost the inspiration to finish this lol. but I think this article is near to the finish line. Sorry in advance also for making it quite long. 🙂
**I don’t even know if someone’s going to read this or if they’ll reach the end lol. Anyways.
~ 10:59pm November 14,2014
Avid fan of lanterns. I hope that before this year ends, I get to have the opportunity to let go one of these lanterns. 🙂 Where do I buy this? O_O They told me I could make one but ughhh. I wan’t to buy one lol.