Need

I need to fall in love…. or be in love…. to be able to write again.


~H (January 30, 2018; 10:28am)

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I stood in the rain today

Another composition but this time via photography ♥ 
p.s. I got sick because of this. 😂 At least… my emotionality got better. lol

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You aren’t in love with me.

See? I told you.. 

eventually you got tired of me.
Clarity suddenly embraced me like a newly-cleaned glass. 

Eventually, you weren’t that faithful at all. 

And it was fate that told me to stop all emotional and mental processes that are linked to you. 
I’ve had enough players that can last me more than a lifetime. 

I deserve far better than this. I deserve more from this world nearly drenched with every bit of negativity. 
And lastly, I just want to conclude…
You aren’t in love with me. Your heart doesn’t beat passionately… A rhythmic beat that cannot dwell to my symphony.

You aren’t in love with me… Your mind is filld with nonsensical things that clouded your judgement, your perception, and your whole being.

You aren’t in love with my being, with my fiery heart, mysterious soul, and tantalizing eyes… you are only in love with the idea that I am new, that I am convenient, that I am easy. 

You are in love with the thought of having the same interest, same tastes, same locality…

So please, retrace your steps… Look back and delve deep to the depths of your weary heart and tired soul. So you can prevent yourself from burning. So you can prevent yourself from hurting. So you can prevent yourself from crying your heart out like I did. 

Go back, before it’s too late.

~ H (January 17, 2017; 12:06am)

5pm thoughts

I just realized that I have been quite selfish recently…
I have taken things for granted…
It finally dawned to me that…
My body doesn’t have the qualifications to like or love anyone right now. 
Sick self, please heal your heart soon. 
~ H (January 15, 2018; 5:26pm)

Today

This day has been extra challenging for me.
I still failed to see…
The goodness in me.
Why do I have this feeling that I am still not totally free?
Here I thought I am aiming for liberty
Here I thought I am already holding my victory…
Now, I am on my knees
Begging to be engulfed by the treacherous sea.
~ H

January 12, 2018; 12:50am

January 2nd

Day two
Blues

clues

truce

and 

endless

you’s 
No

matter

how

many

rhymes

I

make

it 

still

boils

down

to an

infinity

of

You’s

It’s

hard

to

refrain

from

staying

true

It’s

hard

to

stop

forgetting

you.

Could

you

still

be

my 

January

two?

~H 

9:21pm

January 1st

January 1
Day one..

And I am out under the sun

A year’s worth of happiness and pain, gone.

A year’s worth of acadz, done.

It felt like I turned into a Mulan

I am done fighting to be anyone..

I wanted to be someone…
Could you be my january 1? 
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Day one

Another year gone.

Another 365 days done.

So here’s another proclamation, everyone.

This one’s for you, my someone…
Could you be my January 1?
~ H, January 1, 2018; 2:38am