Corporate attires, limitless defenses, concept papers, deadlines… DEADlines…
So we finally reached the 11th week when students are much more concern with their grades before anything else.
These are the times when cups of coffee are positively correlated with productivity.
These are the times when sleep is negatively correlated to academic performance.
These are the times when health is taken for granted.
I’ve constantly experienced mini-earthquakes these past few days. Here I thought it was a natural occurrence…
Unfortunately, it was a biological occurrence caused by lack of rest and sleep.
I am so tired… So let me vent it all out here and waste a few moments of my precious time to rant and to express my feels.
I am so tired. So tired with all of this. I need a break. From everything. Please.
Right now, I am still beyond thankful for God’s never-ending grace. He constantly supplemented my whole being with inner strength and stability.
At times, I almost passed out in the department, was rushed in the clinic because of such nausea… Vertigo has dominated my being… But here I am, still in one piece.
Few days left Hazel, all of these things will be worth it.
Right now, I need a hug, an assurance, and a few words to tell me to keep going.
I am standing at the brink of a knife… I am standing at the edge of the cliff…
I just hope and pray that I’ll survive the remaining days of this week.
And have that sleep and rest that I fully deserve.
~ H (December 11, 2017; 10:03pm)
P.S. Another addition to my limitless meds and vitamins (that I’ll soon forget to drink 😂)
Loljk. I am going to try my best to faithfully drink this every day. (Coz, I don’t want to keep coming back to that white place again 😷)